The first one has the most interesting title I've ever come up with, and I say that because it's not a word. It's a punctuation mark. I wrote "?" at a time when I felt very alone in the world. I felt like the whole world, family included, was against me. I was around age 15, so I guess it's kind of normal, but it was a very distressing time for me. I honestly felt like I had no one to turn to, and I often had few positive things to say about myself. My self-esteem was just so low, I wrote this poem to release my negative thoughts about myself that I had bottled up for a long time.
?
Dear Journal,
who am I?
This
I cannot answer
without asking
others.
I know
what
I am:
I am
lost
cofused
Empty
I know
What I am
Not.
I am not
Happy
Beautiful
slim
slender
what, then,
am I doing
here?
Who am I?
Sincerely,
?
Yeah, it's kind of depressing. But there is a very happy ending. In high school, I took a creative writing class for poetry. The teacher had us write a certain poem.......I honestly don't remember why, but I remember the experience left me in tears. I remembered "?" and decided that it needed an "Answer". It took a while to receive this answer. Lessons learned Girls camp, Seminary, and Sunday School contributed a lot into the answer. And I am forever grateful for them.
Answer
Dear Journal,
I have asked this before:
Who am I?
I cannot answer this without
asking others,
but others
have helped me find the answer
for myself.
I was lost,
but I have found the path.
I was confused,
but I've always had a clear map
in my hands.
Who am I?
I am happy.
The world may think I am an ugly duckling,
but there is one
who knows
that I am a beautiful swan.
And I believe Him.
He knows who I am,
and I do
too.
I may not know my purpose,
But I know who
I am.
Sincerely,
Me.
I realize how long this post is, but I felt like I needed to share these two poems. If you are reading this, thank you for taking the time to read. I hope and pray that my words reach out to those who don't know what to say.
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